The Story of Rose

Lately I've been feeling very unfulfilled with my life...like I'm stuck in the same routine of just getting up, working, cleaning my house, doing the cooking, cleaning...and being a wife, a mom and an employee...I felt depressed and so ordinary... When we are young we have all these hopes and dreams and we think our lives are going to have some sort of major impact on the world. We think we are going to make a change or leave this amazing legacy to our children. And one day you wake up and you are 41 years old working a normal job and living an ordinary life and you feel disillusioned. You think where did it all go wrong, why did I not fulfil my dreams or my "purpose"... I was thinking all these things the past few weeks and then I decided to get down on my knees and pray and speak to God. What I discovered was nothing went wrong in my life, there is nothing wrong with ordinary...I am exactly where I am supposed to be and my life is good. The world we are living in to...

I wrote this when I originally started blogging in 2016 but then life happened and I stopped. I decided to post it again because this is more relevant in the world today than ever before. We live in a society where people are lovers of themselves and pastors want to please the people instead of truly loving people. If we truly love people we will tell them the TRUTH no compromise. We have to speak the truth in love, we have to tell them what they need to hear instead of what they want to hear. Pastors don't want to preach the whole Bible and speak the whole truth, they don't want to preach the full Gospel of Jesus Christ which includes topics like persecution, sin, pursuing holiness and going to heaven or hell. They don't want to offend anyone and all they do is tickle people's ears and make them feel good about themselves and this is dangerous! Churches are focused on pleasing people and pointing them to their pastor instead of loving people and pointing them to Jesus....

I lost my dad on this day 25 years ago, exactly 3 months after his 41st birthday, he was murdered and it changed me... I grew up in a happy family with a loving mother and father, one younger sister and one older brother. Our family was close, my mom was a housewife and my dad was successful in his career, he travelled a lot but when he was home he was very hands on. We went on family holidays every year and he was a loving and devoted husband to my mom and a loving and caring father to me and my siblings. Life was good. Then on the evening of 7 March 1996 my life changed forever, my dad got sick while he was sleeping, my mom was panicking and this woke us up. We jumped out of bed and ran to their bedroom, my dad was acting strange and he seemed like he didn't know what was going on. Someone phoned the ambulance and they rushed him to hospital but he did not make it...he was poisoned...  I was a 17 year old girl when my dad was taken from us and it broke me, I turned to alcohol, re...